Is that infatuation??? Love ???

Finally, I meet you..
I have no idea what I have to share and talk by the time it happen
You know me already, and my feeling as well
There will be nothing much that I have to say since I did my best to tell you about my feeling

We met by a chance, and then our relationship grow by coincidences
I never imagine that you will be someone that I’m in love with
Love? Sounds so naive, or it just infatuation..
I cannot describe more or explain about how I feel for sure

The more I think about us, I feel more pain
Reason why we get closer was my mistake.. I used you to help cheer me up
At the first, seems you save and brought happiness into my life
By the end, what happen next even worse that what I experienced before

I cannot hate you
The more I hate you, the more I hate myself
I did realize I’m the one who bring you into this game
Game? Shit..
First time, we just playing a game
Now, I do wish to have serious relationship with you, or even have a family with you one day..
Is that weird if I need commitment from you?

I can accept that you’re not just into me
I just cannot understand why I was so stupid when the last day we met